I haven't really slept well. She e-mailed pictures yesterday and it is eerie--we are carbon copies of eachother. I'm going to see her today. This whole thing is just mind-boggling, phenomenal. I can't think about anything else and I surely can't focus. I can't think about the budget or paying bills. I can't get up the energy to clean the house. I feel like I'm going crazy. I can't tell my "adoptive" mother about this; it would kill her. I spoke to my sister this morning and I was so detached. It was totally weird. It was like I was faking the conversation. How do I live in two different worlds like this right now? DH is so supportive. I am really blessed. I need to breath. It turns out that she (birth mom) has a very rare, extremely hereditary disease that is passed down through female generations. Shock after shock after shock after shock....
NOT about anything financial
April 12th, 2008 at 07:44 am




April 12th, 2008 at 08:13 am
April 12th, 2008 at 08:49 am
Has your adoptive mother ever spoken to you of how she would feel if you were in contact w/your birth mother?
April 12th, 2008 at 09:09 am
April 12th, 2008 at 09:31 am
April 12th, 2008 at 08:42 pm
April 13th, 2008 at 11:55 am
Take a deep breath. This is a biggie.